Everyday you can find some unusual stories in the newspapers and, although they are mainly product of an over creative imagination of news reporters (because it is kind of an art to make some normal and everyday news into bombastic headline), there are some that are just strange by itself. Two days ago, an older couple came to the health center because 81 year old husband wanted to donate his blood. While waiting, in an overcrowded waiting room, he got sick and collapsed on the floor. Dead. His life no more. His body, just a pile of flesh. After the futile effort to reanimate him, they left him, covered with a plastic garbage bag, lying right there on the floor for two hours, until coroner arrived. His wife crying on the floor beside him, people crossing over his body and looking at his feet sticking out of the cover... Two hours. Eternity. Death is something, much like the Sun, you cannot stare into it... but in that waiting room it was there, surrounded with people that came to give their blood, their life... completing a big circle of life. Imagine looking through that man eyes when entering waiting room, passing with his gaze, maybe, over the unnaturally green floor on which he will lie dead just some minutes later. Those were the last doors he opened, the last time he looked at his wife, the last thoughts that came in his mind, the last few steps he made, the last heartbeats his heart made before finally settling for an eternity... Yesterday I took an annual physical exam... h/w: 181/79, bp: 120/70, hb/m:46 but those are just numbers, there is no certainty in them, no promise... This could easily be my last morning, my last few thoughts, my last few heartbeats... So, I always try to take life in full, never hesitate to feel both happiness and sorrow. Because, if someday, somewhere, I feel the end is right there, on my lips, with that black shadow coming down on me, I want to know what I am leaving behind is not just an empty body, but an instrument I used in every possible way to experience the world around me. No regrets. No remorse. No sorrow.
If I knew
If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in tighter and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute or two to stop and say love you,
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day,
well I'm sure you'll have so many more so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance to make everything right.
There will always be another day to say our," I love you's,"
And certainly there's another chance to say our. " Anything I can do's?"
But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.
So always hold them dear. Take time to say I'm sorry, Please forgive me, thank you, or it's okay.
And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today.
(Laura Horton) |